Button's new life with Christ
My day started out like any other pregnancy day...an overwhelming since of nauseousness. But with this feeling was the feeling of excitement as well! Today was the day that we were going to get to see our little Button on ultrasound. I have been a little worried over the past few days because of some light spotting that something was wrong with little Button, but since I tend to fear, I shrugged these emotions off. We arrived at the doctor and went into the ultrasound room. I could tell almost immediately that something didn't look right. The tech was pretty quiet as she took measurements and then proceeded to listen to the heart. There was no heart beat. This made me a little worried, but I figured that it was just too early to hear it. Then the words resounded in David and my ears, “Im going to go get Dr. Roberts.” With that we knew exactly what happened. Tears and emotions followed the next couple of minutes as David and I tried to accept what was happening.
Dr. Roberts had to rush to the hospital for an emergency C-section, so they decided to take us to a room to wait for an hour until her return. Walking to the room was the longest walk I think I have ever made. We walked past a couple that we had seen before the ultrasound when everything was happy go lucky. This was hard! You never realize how happy women are in an obgyn office until something like this happens. As I made my way to the bathroom, some people would just smile. “Shouldn't they know what is going on? Why are they smiling; it's not a smiling moment!”
Over the next hour as David and I waited in a room, we prayed together, wept together, sang together, shared lies and then a lot of truths! I would not give this hour up for anything. It was very healing for me!!!!!
So, here is what I want you to know about baby Button. God has chosen to pour His grace on Button and spare him/her from this sin riddled world! What a grace! We believe baby Button is in heaven worshipping Jesus as you read this!!! Also, we believe that every single moment and day of Button's was fashioned by God. He wrote every single day and knew when it would be Button's last! This act is for my best, David's best, Button's best and even your best! God is good and working all things for His good. “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints(ps 116:15)!!”
Where we are: We are certainly sad! This is hard! But we do not grieve like someone who has no hope! For we know we will get to meet Button one day! We ask for your prayers. We are spending two weeks trying to let things happen naturally, but if nothing happens, we will go for a D and C, I guess after that. So, pray that we will not have to have the surgery. David is taking a week off so we can be together. Thank you for your prayers and thoughts!!!
Love you all
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